Dreaming

This post, or the contents of this post, are first and foremost dedicated to my God. I am the clay, and He is the potter. I am the sapling and wherever He plants me, I will grow deep roots. Whatever He may choose to "prune" from my life, I willing offer.


Secondly, this post is dedicated to my friend, Michael. We have only know each other a few short weeks, and I think we both know that we are in each other's life for a reason; with that in mind, Michael, you are the only person in my life who has asked me to write about my dreams. You are the only person who has questioned how I will rebuild my life from what seems to be so damaging. And since you've pushed me to dream, I will write and wait on the Lord to do as He wills. Michael, I hope that you will believe in my dreams, and know that I believe in you and yours.


Lastly, to my readers, as absurd or far-fetched or ridiculous my dreams may be, believe with me. I may not get everything that I am dreaming and hoping for but realize it wont make me a failure...it's simply that that dream is not ordained for me. So with that, believe with me.


After that intro I don't know where to start ...


I want to be used by God, somehow. Be it that I serve in my church diligently, or that I have a full-time ministry, I want to serve God. This dream isn't very clear simply because I feel that I have talents in other arenas besides "the church." I have a degree in Communications and Industrial Psychology, I love training and development and I especially love motivating people to best that they can be. So, I feel that this dream is a life-long endeavor and will become clearer as I trustingly continue to follow God's path for me.


I want to be a wife...again. I loved being a wife. I loved loving my husband. I loved serving him. I loved encouraging him. I loved listening to him. I loved hugging him. I loved waiting for him. I loved belonging to him and dedicating myself to him and his dreams. 


I want to love again and I want to be the amazing wife (that I know I was) that I am meant to be.


I want a man to romance me and sweep me off my feet. I want a man who is committed for a lifetime, a man who wants to know me, a man who will fight for me and our marriage, a man who will not give up when things are hard or uncomfortable, a man who will work on his flaws, a man who will love me despite my flaws, a man who will put me in my place, a man who will treasure me, a man who will cherish me, a man who will honor me and his vow, a man who will not cheat, a man who will always place me second to God, and a man who will love God more than anything else in this world.


Plus he needs to be a cutie ;)


*And all my single ladies know that the above is a far fetched dream :)


I want to have a really nice big kitchen so that I can make my loved ones food, and where I can store all my treasures.


I want to be a mother. I say I want six kids, but who knows. But I know that I know I want to enjoy the gift of raising children.


I want to own my own coffee shop. I don't know why, how or where, but I've always wanted one, so there ya go.


I want to have a consulting group, where I can work with other consultants, in my field, and help organizations to work efficiently and profitably.


With the above in mind, I want to love what I do. 


I want to sing and play my gui-tar (southern drawl)...again not sure what that encompasses, but I do know that I love being a part of my Praise and Worship team at church.


I want to own my own home, gut it, and remodel it all on my own. (Remember I said I don't know if all of these dreams will come to pass, because I don't think I can lay tile straight, draw a perfect circle, or much less hang cabinetry.  But hey, I'm dreaming). Along with that I want to plant Magnolia trees on my land.


I want to grow my own vegetables. I am actually a good green thumb (one year I grew, onions, cilantro, radishes, lettuce, spinach and broccoli in my apartment, I was and still am very proud).


I want to have chickens (that don't poop or stink) ha!


I want to own a beautiful 1954 Chevy truck...either cherry red or a pale green and white wall tires...fo' sho.


I want to see my mom walking and living her dreams. Gosh I want this one bad...


I want to see my siblings walking and living their dreams.


I want to see all my nieces and nephews go to college, and hopefully I can pay for them to go to school.


I want my best friends to marry the men of their dreams (that God has prepared for them).


I want to be able to hang out with my best friend Ida, all the time.


I want Marissa and her family to move to Tucson (because I'll probably never move back to San Diego).


I want to be debt free, specifically from student loans! Anyone want to help me with this one? :)


I want to go to Egypt, India, Europe, China, Japan, Russia, Alaska and Harry Potter world.


I want to write a book.


And, I want to have joy my whole long life.


What are some of your dreams?